1: All characters who appear (Xena,
Gabrielle and Ephiny) and those who are mentioned (Solari, Eponin, Lao Ma, Cyane,
Perdicus and Autolycus) belong to Renaissance Pictures and MCA/Universal. No
infringement is intended and no profit will be made.
Disclaimers 2: The story belongs to me (I came up with this one during a college lecture when I couldn’t keep my mind off of all the fan fiction I’d been reading. You try concentrating on Marxism when all you can think about is a brunette warrior and a blonde amazon rolling around in bed together).
Historians Note: This story can take place any time after Gabrielle has become the Amazon Queen, but was obviously written after Adventures In The Sin Trade
Warning: This story is sub-text friendly. If this kind of material offends you, or is illegal where you live, or you are under age then the exit is the way you came in.
This story is for my Avator, I know you’re out there.
Take A Chance - Part 1
can’t help watching her. Right now she’s stood in the central meeting place
in the Amazon village talking to Ephiny. It amazes me what a pile of
contradictions she is; on the outside she is all hardened warrior, but to the
lucky few, like myself, who have seen beneath the surface she is a sensitive and
caring woman. Even as she stands in the village she still contradicts; despite
the fact that she is a female warrior amongst a tribe of female warriors she is
still set apart from them, as she should feel at ease she stays alert for an
attack. All warrior, all woman, all Xena.
knows I’m watching her, I can see those piercing blue eyes glancing sideways
at me, and smiling that special smile that she only uses for me. It’s at times
like these that I get those feelings....
don’t know when I fell in love with her, maybe I always was. I knew there was
an attraction right from the start, but back then I put it down to admiration, a
strong case of hero worship of a naive village girl to the fearless warrior; she
had been to places and done things that I had only dreamed about. I begged her
to take me with her but she refused of course, she said she didn’t need anyone
but I knew better.
somewhere along the line it hit me, I don’t even think it was one of Cupid’s
arrows, it just happened. I think it was when I thought I’d lost her, when she
died. It was then that I realised how empty my life was without her, and deeper
than that I felt that I had lost the other half of my soul. That’s what she
is, the other half of me, you only have to look at the two of us together to
know it. On first sight we look so different but look closer and you see that we
fit so perfectly together. Anyway, while she was gone she came to me, told me
what I had to do to bring her back. And then she kissed me - that was it, that
was the moment that I was sure that I was in love with her, had always been in
love with her.
my dismay and frustration she has never mentioned that kiss since she came back
from the dead, not once. I would give anything to know who it was who put
Autolycus’s hands on my butt; he looked too surprised, which makes me think,
and hope, that it was Xena.
body has started to twitch nervously as she feels my eyes boring into her. She
is trying to concentrate on what Ephiny is saying but I can tell that she’s
finding it difficult. Am I doing that to her? Does she go through what I go
through every time I look at her, every time I’m near her, every time that I
I find myself staring at her body through the twilight as she strips to go
swimming or to bathe; praying that she won’t catch me and praying that she
will. I don’t know what would affect me more, her not knowing how I feel about
her or her finding out that I think this way about her. She must know, how could
she not? How could she not know that I spend the long hours walking along the
road wishing that I was sitting behind her on Argo, running my hands over her
armour, her leather, her body. That I spend the evenings around the camp fire
telling her stories with words when I wish I was telling them with my body. That
at night when I wake to find her still sleeping beside me and I long to reach
out and touch her, I have a few times, she doesn’t know.
would I give to have just one kiss from those lips? To know that she means it,
to know that I mean it. No tricks. No interruptions. Just me and Xena doing
whatever we want to because I know I couldn’t settle for just one kiss.
that I know what comes next, I’m not very experienced when it comes to sex but
I’ve got a good imagination - it’s served me well while I’ve had my
fantasy’s of Xena. Still when it comes down to the actual act I’ve only been
with one person - my husband Perdicus. I’ve never even come close to being
with a woman, not that I didn’t know it existed. It wasn’t totally unheard
of in Poteidaia, just unseen.
was only when we came to the Amazon village that first time that I saw it for
myself. I immediately noticed the way the women were completely at ease with one
another, how intimate they were being. I remember the early stages of my Amazon
training; the way Eponin had stood behind me, her arms around my upper body as
she helped me grip and swing the staff. There was a feeling of .... of something
that surged through me at the close contact and something that wished this
muscular, brunette warrior was my Xena.
that I thought she might treat me a little differently but I was still just
Gabrielle, her sidekick, her adopted little sister, but I was happy to be by her
second time we came to the village I knew what to look for, the glances, the
words, the body language. Still nothing prepared me when I saw it. I was talking
to Ephiny during the harvest celebration, I don’t remember what we were
speaking about. The celebration continued around us, Xena was drinking ale with
some of the other Amazons - a contest I think - when a slightly merry Solari
sauntered over. She grasped Ephiny’s face in her hands and tilted to blonde
woman’s head up, a moment later their lips were locked in the most searing
kiss I had ever seen. Ephiny pulled Solari down onto her lap and they continued
oblivious to everyone, even me as I watched them enchanted by the act and
since then I have not been able to stop thinking about that kiss, but in my mind
the two Amazons are replaced by me and Xena. But it doesn’t stop with that
kiss it never does.
know she’s been with other women, Lao Ma and Cyane, they’re the ones she’s
told me about, but I can fill in the blanks. I’m not jealous, they were from
her past, a past I have no part in. But I’m here in the present and I love her
every bit as much as any of them did - maybe even more.
she doesn’t see me that way. She still sees me as that naive village girl that
she needs to protect. I need to prove to her that I’ve become a woman, that I
can take care of myself and her if she ever needed it. But how can I prove
wonder what she would do if I made the first move? If I did something to move
our relationship further? What could I do? This voice keeps saying to me Take
a chance, take a chance. But what do I do?
watching me again, I can feel it and in the corner of my vision I can see it. I
hate it when she does that. No I don’t, I love it and I know it. I can tell
when she’s watching me with those eyes, you know the eyes that are.... loving
me, I guess you’d call it, it’s at those times that she is completely
hardest when we’re in the Amazon village. When we’re here she is expected to
wear royal attire, and she looks beautiful in it. The brown suede top covers
even less of her well muscled torso than the green one does, and the skirt
leaves nothing to the imagination on the defined thighs. She even carries
herself differently, every move is positively regal. Every bit their Queen,
every bit a woman and every bit my Gabrielle.
it right of me to think of her as mine? She’s my friend, my travelling
companion, my bard and yet I would let her walk away if it meant her happiness
hoping that she wouldn’t hear my heart breaking. I guess that says it all. I
let the little girl into my heart, let her behind the walls, the barriers that
I’d built around myself; but it was the woman who took possession of that
was her voice that called to me while I was beyond the grave, her voice that
pulled me back from death. I didn’t come back for my destiny, I came back for
her. I couldn’t stop that kiss, I wanted it so much, so I took advantage of
the unique opportunity. After that I didn’t know what to do, I was afraid.
Yeah me, the mighty Warrior Princess who can make armies, kings and gods quake
in fear, quakes herself the moment the Bard of Poteidaia touches, comes near or
even looks at her. And I know I’m doing it now, when that happens I don’t
know whether to kiss her or kill her.
Gods do I want to kiss her. So many times I’ve come close and so many times
I’ve stopped myself. I can’t do that to her, I can’t let her into my
darkness. But maybe she’s the light that I need.
have been so many, so many who have tried to conquer my darkness with love. I
could’ve lost myself in Lao Ma, surrendering my will to her, I messed that one
up pretty good. Then there was Cyane, she was my equal but she represented all
the light and goodness that I was not and so I destroyed her. There have been
others, too many to count, others from who I took want I wanted, those actions
only fuelled my darkness.
was goodness, light, innocence, everything that I needed. She gave these gifts
to me and offered me her friendship. I excepted them and never asked for
anything more, when so often I’ve wanted to.
watched her when we’re among the Amazons, her reactions to the strong bonds
that some of them develop with one another. The first time she seemed a bit
stunned but curious none the less, but I wasn’t around for much of the time so
I don’t know how she handled it. The second time, during the harvest
celebration, I challenged the Amazons to a contest, said I could drink any one
of them under the table, and I did. Solari put up the best fight, but even she
couldn’t keep up and staggered towards where Ephiny sat talking to Gabrielle
and proceeded to kiss Ephiny quite thoroughly. It was out of control, even for
the Amazons, but it was worth it just for the look on Gabrielle’s face. She
sat mesmerised by what she saw, I kept expecting her to ask what it tasted like.
To this day I still don’t think she knows that I put Solari up to it; I mean
Ephiny and Solari are a couple, but Solari had to pay a forfeit for losing the
drinking competition and I did want to see how Gabrielle would react....
then on she looked at me differently, that was when I noticed that she watched
me with lovers eyes. I’d like nothing more than to take her as my lover, I’m
sure half the Amazons, half of our friends, half of the known world think that
we already are. Sure we play up to it, but these days I don’t know where the
I think about saying something to her and everyday I talk myself out of it.
I’m no good with words, me, I’m all action. What if I did that? What if
I made a move? What if she said no? Could I live with myself for
jeopardising, possibly ending, our friendship? and could I live with her knowing
that she didn’t return my love? That’s me being selfish. I should honour and
respect our friendship, it’s the best thing that’s ever happened to me and I
know I’d rather die than lose it.
those feelings, those sensations, those images are waiting for me every time I
close my eyes. All I can see is me and Gabrielle wrapped in each others arms -
me teaching physical love and her teaching emotional love. That’s what tells
me we’d be perfect for one another and I think she sees it too.
has finished speaking, she’s waiting for my reaction, I have none to give
because truthfully I haven’t heard
a word of the conversation. The Amazon laughs, mutters something about me having
better things on my mind when she glances off to where Gabrielle is stood
watching and then lightly slaps my arm as she backs away from me.
she is gone I turn to where she had glanced and my vision falls fully on
Gabrielle. She’s striding, no stalking, in my direction and I can’t help
noticing how powerful she looks, the power that she has over me. There is a look
of determination on her face and it unnerves me and excites me at the same time.
did not have any time to form a coherent thought, let alone voice it before
Gabrielle reached her. The feisty young Amazon Queen’s blue green eyes flared
dangerously, yet she did not say a word. It might have occurred to the Warrior
Princess to be afraid had she not been so aroused by the lust and desire that
flashed in her friends eyes.
watched as Xena’s sapphire orbs blazed with a myriad of undisguised emotions;
panic and confusion were two emotions that Gabrielle was not used to seeing in
that usually stoic face. Then there was the love that was always so evident, but
this time it seemed to surpass their friendship and bordered on passion.
eternity seemed to pass as they stood in the centre of the village gazing at one
another. So many questions passed through each of their minds: What is she going
to do? Why is she stopping? What is she waiting for? Will she make the first
move or do I?
as Gabrielle thought she had lost her nerve and Xena began to turn away from
her, the Queen’s hand reached out and caught the warrior’s face and brought
their eyes together once more. The hand that rested on Xena’s right cheek
snaked its way though the black mane of hair and gripped at the back of the
warrior’s neck. Slowly she pulled Xena’s face closer to her own, so close
that their foreheads were almost touching. Once again their eyes were locked,
Xena’s blues now soft with love as she reacted to the mischievous sparkle in
Gabrielle’s gaze. A moment later the Amazon Queen captured the Warrior
Princess’s lips with her own.
shy, but determined lips pressed against her mouth, all of the tension that had
built up over the last few minutes left Xena’s body; she raised her hands to
Gabrielle’s face, her finger tips caressing soft cheeks, the jaw line and
lightly grazing the bards neck all helping to deepen the kiss.
nerves or fears that Gabrielle had initially felt at making such a bold move
were quickly dissipating as Xena eagerly responded to her. Her confidence
building she lifted her other hand and tangled it in the raven softness.
Wondering how much further she could actually push her luck Gabrielle answered
to the urging finger tips. As their lips continued to move together she traced
along Xena’s upper lip with her tongue and then flicked against it.
little surprised by the action, maybe she even yelped slightly - though she
would never admit to it, Xena pushed both of their mouths open allowing both of
them to explore freely. Every time they had kissed, every time they had touched,
every time they had looked into each others eyes it should have been like this -
and now it could be.
Gabrielle tried to draw her lips away from Xena, afraid that she would not be
able to stop if she did not. Urgently Xena sought to reclaim those soft lips,
but finally Gabrielle was out of her reach and clutching at Xena’s hands.
held Xena’s hands in her own, against her chest, both feeling Gabrielle’s
reaction by the rapidly beating heart they found there. A small smile tugged at
the warrior’s lips at what she could feel, knowing that her own heart, hidden
by armour and leather rivalled the bards. Gabrielle’s eyes caught Xena’s as
a moment of panic rose in them - that she had done the wrong thing; that was
replaced by disappointment - that they had had to stop.
a moment each of them tried to calm their ragged breathing. The Amazon Queen
managed to wet her lips with her tongue, but could not manage to pull her gaze
from Xena’s lips that were just begging to be kissed again. Her gaze climbed
the beautifully sculpted features until they rested back with the stunning blue
I guess that answers that question.” Gabrielle said breathlessly. And it did
answer every question. They wanted each other in every way possible and there
was no way to deny it anymore. She dropped their hands, breaking the last shred
of physical contact; her chest heaved as she tried to force oxygen back into her
turned and walked away, leaving a very stunned and equally breathless warrior in
her wake. Xena stared after the retreating form, not sure what she should do
now. Entranced by the way Gabrielle moved, the way her hair glowed in the slowly
setting sun, Xena did not think that she could do anything. Somewhere in the
last few minutes her brain had stopped sending messages to her legs.
internally at the fact that she had shocked the warrior to the degree where she
could no longer move Gabrielle looked over her shoulder at the motionless
warrior. She grinned at what she saw and when she was sure that Xena was
watching her she jerked her head suggestively in the direction of her hut.
widening at the implication Xena’s legs recovered from their temporary
paralysis. The last thing any of the Amazons saw was the Warrior Princess
entering the Amazon Queens hut, a self-satisfied smile spreading across her
be concluded....Part 2
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